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Do you ever have this urge that something is welling up on the inside of you and you don’t know how or when but God is going to release it in due time?

That’s the calling of the Holy Spirit to draw you closer to the Lord because He’s about to use you. What has been poured into you will be released.

I am asking that you have supernatural vision when reading this post because it doesn’t make sense in the natural.

“1 Corinthians 2:7-13 No, the wisdom we speak of is the mystery of God his plan that was previously hidden, even though he made it for our ultimate glory before the world began. But the rulers of this world have not understood it; if they had, they would not have crucified our glorious Lord. That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” But it was to us that God revealed these things by his Spirit. For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets. No one can know a person’s thoughts except that person’s own spirit, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit. And we have received God’s Spirit (not the world’s spirit), so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us. When we tell you these things, we do not use words that come from human wisdom. Instead, we speak words given to us by the Spirit, using the Spirit’s words to explain spiritual truths.

God has specific plans for each of us and there are assignments that he has and asks of us. As it states in 1 Corinthians 7:17 Only, as the Lord has assigned to each one, as God has called each, in this manner let him walk And so I direct in all the churches.

Recently, God has been giving me a more prophetic vision and as you have read in my last post, He has taken me through a Refiner’s Fire season. In this season, He has spoken to me, warned me and corrected me. I have not been without blemish but God is doing something big!

It began when I saw a snake on a bush and not until the close of this last season did I realize this was a prophetic sign of the season I was about to encounter. When I saw the snake, I was the most fearful I have ever been. I dealt with fear, panic, worry and some health issues that are now whole. In that season, God spoke to me like never before. I had dreams, visions and it produced more of a desire for His will in my life. At the close of that season, there was a white bird and it landed on a bush(in the spirit my mind went back to when I saw the snake) I realized that I need to see in the spirit what God is trying to say. I got into my car and that white bird flew next to my car for about half of a mile. I knew God was saying something. Now, you may not understand the symbolism but when God speaks to me he gives me signs and discernment but he has even spoken to me through other people. This sign in my spirit gave me freedom in knowing that that chapter of pain and deceit is closed and a new chapter is beginning. I am not talking about people or relationships, I am talking about the spiritual season that many people have encountered. This new chapter will be freedom, peace and new beginnings.

I know it says in the word that what is done in the natural is usually what is being done in the spirit. The supernatural signs in the natural have given a word for what is happening in the spiritual realm:

Many Christians have been going through this refiners Fire season. There have been disappointments, set backs, diagnosis and many other things but the Lord is saying that there is about to be a new season. New things are coming that no man, no devil in hell can hold back. God is bringing the ones who are “standing in the gap” (as it says in Ezekiel) closer to Him and are going to experience things supernaturally that they never once thought that they would see. This is a word of encouragement to not look back but to keep moving forward in confidence that God is faithful. This is a prophetic call to cling to Him and to see His goodness.

Not saying there won’t be hard times but a new season is in store.


Let what is welling up in your spirit produce fruit. You were made for “such a time as this”.


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“For He is like a refiners fire and like launderers’ soap, He will sit as a refiner and a purifier of silver; He will purify the sons of Levi and purge them as gold and silver, That they may offer to the Lord an offering in righteousness.”  Malachi 3:3-4

When one thinks about the Refiner’s fire, it isn’t that the gold or silver completely burns  but that it burns away the impurities to make it a purer gold. This is the way that God deals with sin and human nature in ones own life.  Christians are not always prepared for this process as it can lead to a plethora of internal upheaval and it is not at all comfortable.

As disciples of Christ one must go through this process of refining to produce the fruits of the spirit. One is not automatically saved then  immediately begins the production of  all the Fruits of the Spirit in ones life. Sometimes, one must walk with the Lord and experience difficulty for the Lord to achieve the product. A product more like Christ. This at times can be very difficult but it is more useful to the kingdom.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control…” Galatians 5:22

This season may be intense or merely like a slight burn. God will walk with one through the darkest season of life–If that is what it takes. Many internal struggles and misunderstandings of “why”can at times it can feel like Job and his own suffering and questioning. Sometimes there isn’t merely a physical death but a mental and spiritual death. There can be so many things going on inside that it is difficult to comprehend. One can say it’s just “emotional” (as many have labeled it) but it’s a deep knowing of the personal walk with God, so intimate that only the Lord and individual will understand. This is a season one may have to pull away from everything that was thought to be of God to realize that it isn’t, in order to be pliable to Gods will. One may call to God and say: “Where are you?” “Why are you allowing brokenness?” God answered:

“He said I am breaking you down only to rebuild you as Solomon built the temple. “All things work together for the good to those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

One was once told “I am going through a difficult season as well, but I can’t show it because I am in the ministry”.  This thought process is not an accurate depiction of a real authentic leader. Being in the ministry is not a fake personality. The representation of our walk with Christ should be authentic. If in the ministry or not, one must  lift another up in prayer and be present for one another. The first step is realizing one is broken and asking God “Why?”.

Until one completely seeks the Lord’s face, the understanding of the season won’t be revealed. David cried out for God to help him daily. It can be imagined of David with his harp in the field crying out to the Lord:

Lord, listen to me and answer me.
I am poor and helpless.
Protect me, because I worship you.
My God, save me, your servant who trusts in you.
Lord, have mercy on me,
because I have called to you all day.
Give happiness to me, your servant,
because I give my life to you, Lord.
Lord, you are kind and forgiving
and have great love for those who call to you.
Lord, hear my prayer,
and listen when I ask for mercy.
I call to you in times of trouble,
because you will answer me.

Lord, there is no god like you
and no works like yours.
Lord, all the nations you have made
will come and worship you.
They will honor you.
10 You are great and you do miracles.
Only you are God.
11 Lord, teach me what you want me to do,
and I will live by your truth.
Teach me to respect you completely.
12 Lord, my God, I will praise you with all my heart,
and I will honor your name forever…” Psalm 86

He begged and pleaded with God throughout the bible. He too went through many Refiner’s fire moments. God allows these times to bring out more of a desperation for Him.

I pray today that God continue to keep one in the fire until it’s time to come out at the exact and perfect time. One must want to be more like Jesus, to live a life completely sold out to Him. To live a life of victory. He has won death, hell and the grave through the resurrection. He too can bring victory to lives. This is only a season but it’s necessary for growth in Christ.

“7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” 1 Peter 1:7

And I began to cry out Holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come. Come be the fire inside of me, take away any impurities. Search my heart for any wicked way. Make me more like you, Jesus.

This Day I fight…

We are all on this journey called “life”. Sometimes I say “hashtag life” when explaining my “rough day”. I say it sarcastically, but it’s a true reflection of how life goes sometimes. “Hashtag life” means there are ups and downs but I’m okay no matter where I am at in life. 

Sometimes we lose peace, hope and joy through struggles or trials. There are seasons we have to fight for joy and hope. We even have to fight the thoughts that cloud our minds. When this happens we can’t be passive christians curled up in a ball in the corner, we have to learn to go to war! 

My story: 

I’m very vulnerable in my writings. I write a lot about things I go through, but that is how we overcome. It says in the word that “we overcome the the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony”. So, I will write about my testimony in hopes of others being set free from bondage that I was. 

Growing up I struggled with discouragement. For some reason, I would always find myself in a dark place emotionally. My thoughts became like a spider web, they entangled my mind. Satan would use every lie he could to get me down, and I would believe them. I would even begin to speak them out loud. One season of my life, I became hopeless. The guy I was dating didn’t work out, I didn’t get into the college that I wanted to, and I had to take a break from school and work at a job that I didn’t particularly like. In that season friends abandoned me and I felt completely alone. Little did I know, this season would produce a warrior. Somehow I got my hands on a C.D. on how to war in the spirit. It taught me how to recognize lies the enemy was placing in my mind, and to put on the armor of God. I began to use the word of God and prayer as weapons against sorrow. 

“If we believe the word of God is true then we believe that the Word of God is a sword. It actually says that it is more powerful than any two-edged sword.(Hebrews 4:12).

I began to fight, to war in prayer and the confession of the Word of God over my mind and my life. The Lord completely broke sadness, depression and anxiety from my life. I had total peace and joy in my situation. About a month later I found out that I got into nursing school and a new season of life began. 

I share this because recently Satan has tried to bring me back to the pit I was delivered from. “Hashtag life”. I went on a missions trip to Ireland and something that was said before I left Ireland was “expect the enemy to try to come against you because of all that you have done in the spirit here”. I was prepared to arrive back to America in a battle. “Hashtag life” happened and I had to war again. Life is not going to always be perfect but I know the One who is perfect! If I have delt with this as a Christian (for over twenty years) I know that many others have and do too. 

When these things come against us we can’t sit back and be “passive Christians”, we have to fight! For we do not war against flesh and blood but against principalitites of darkness. Even when we think people are our problems, clearly they are not. It is a spiritual fight. To be a victor we must open up our mouths and proclaim what is true. 

“The problem is that too many christians have confused peace with passivity. They have hollow peace instead of hallowed peace. Their lives are prayerless and they live in perpetual compromise with heavens enemies. This is not peace; it is bondage. Jesus was the quintessential peacemaker, yet he boldly confronted the advance of evil. And he did so with unbending righteous and unsheathed spiritual authority”… Jesus operated in war mode. 

If you find yourself broken and without hope or joy you should get mad because this is exactly where Satan wants you. He wants you to be in bondage so that you don’t fulfill the Lords will and so that you won’t be able to reach others for his glory. 

This day we fight! 

Jeremiah 29:11

Psalm 33:20-22

Hebrews 6:19

Psalm 138:6-7

Psalm 139:7-24

Take a deep breath and begin again…

Take a deep breath and begin again…

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Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale… the sound of my own breath in the quietness. Thoughts racing through my head, but in the silence, all I could hear was the action of my autonomic nervous system. Something that could only be started and stopped by the creator.

 Somehow, I lost myself in the whirlwinds and business of life. I wanted what I wanted and didn’t think twice about it. I have literally been given almost everything I could ever ask for. When I say almost, I mean it. There was something I didn’t have that I nearly wrestled with God about. I realized it was time to be vulnerable again. To be honest with myself and my audience. The deep thought of “if I just move away and start again, I can change things, it will be better”. That may be very true, but it’s also the flight in me. Fleeing will be fun for a while, until I deal with this thought and feeling head on. It’s just going to come full circle and I must deal with it wherever I am.

I awoke out of the slumber and selfishness of my desires to see the light that has been given to me. My identity is not found in this world, in what I want, even in what I am made up of, but whose I am. I almost forgot that my life could change at any given second, because I serve a God who holds my life in his hands. I forgot for a second whose I was. Thank God that verses like: 1 Thessalonians 1:4 were planted deep in me, that I could look back and know that He chose me. Wow! I was chosen by God! So many time’s we want to be accepted by people, but what we need to realize is that we were sought after, and chosen by God. It seems silly, like some far-off fairytale that is hard to comprehend, until you feel the true love of the father. A love that changes your actions, that provokes you to love and do things even when they don’t make sense. The kind of love everyone is secretly searching for. People look for that kind love and acceptance through alcohol, drugs, sex, music, the way they act, social media, “friends”. They won’t admit it, but it’s true! The only type of love that can bring you back when you are so far off course, that will love you when you do it wrong, that always believes the best, that corrects, that trusts, that dies for YOU. Serious love, that I am forever grateful for. Everyone’s search for love is different and important. A girl desires for a man to seek her out, to only have eyes for her. This kind of love is found in the love of the father. He seeks us out through his holy spirit. Therefore, he created the church as his bride and He the groom.

Even though I lost who I was for a second, God brought me back to my roots, to show me that He’s not done with me yet. That feeling of flight might have just been a step in the direction of love. It’s almost like a feeling of a mime inside of a box. The mime goes from side, to side, to side, to side searching, seeking for a way out, and then it realizes that it can just step away. Step away… STEP AWAY from the thoughts that entangle, lay them down at the feet of Jesus, and realize you were chosen. Chosen for a time such as this, chosen for a specific purpose, chosen to show love and be loved. God chose you because he LOVES you. I was reminded of the Love Jesus has for me.

Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale…… its literally the breath that God breathed inside of us. Life has its funny ways of making us crazy, making us think, second guess, but I know whose I am. I am a daughter of the king, and I will not be swayed by my thoughts, or desires, but by what I know based on God’s word.



Jeremiah 1:5

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart…..



Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me…

red-seaThen they said to Moses, “Because there were no graves in Egypt, have you taken us away to die in the wilderness? why have you so dealt with us, to bring us up out of Egypt? “Is this not the word that we told you in Egypt, saying , let us alone that we may serve the Egyptians’? For it would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than that we should die in the wilderness.”

At this moment in Exodus Moses had brought the Israelites out of Egypt, and they approached the Red Sea.  They began  to moan, groan and complain in fear for their lives.  All they could see for miles and miles was water, and their enemies were coming to kill them.  Can you imagine being Moses, standing in front of the Red Sea as the Egyptians were pursuing from behind?  Moses continued to heed to the Lords calling, the Lords Commands, and he came to what he and the people of Israel thought was the end.  Non-the-less, Moses continued to have faith as the Israelites fought their own emotions and thoughts from within themselves.

“And Moses said to the people “do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today”… “The Lord will fight for you and you shall hold your peace. “… And the Lord said to Moses, “why do yo cry to me? Tell the children of Israel to go forward.  “but lift up your rod, and stretch out your hand over the sea and divide it. And the children of Israel shall go on dry ground through the midst of the sea”…

“Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and the Lord caused the sea to go back by a strong east wind all that night, and made the sea into dry land, and the waters were divided.”

God brought the Egyptians to a place where they could not rely on themselves or even on their leader, Moses.  They didn’t know what was going to happen next. All they could see was destruction for their future.  They didn’t continue to believe that God would fulfill His promises to them. In panic, they cried out for help because they couldn’t see the plan of the Lord.

I dove into Exodus this morning only to come out with a new revelation of Gods promise.  Sometimes we come to the end of our road, and God has to take over.  A lot of times I think God does this so that we no longer rely on ourselves, but we have to rely solely on Him.  When we come to the end (The Red Sea) we have to continue to believe that God will fulfill His promises to us. We serve a good God.  If God has always been good to us and we can see that, why would he stop now?

When I look back on all my past worries I can see the goodness of the Lord in my life. I see now that there was no reason to worry because God directed me and kept me. I know he was my rod at times that I couldn’t bare life on my own.

There is an interesting correlation between Gods power, and the rod in the story of Moses parting the Red Sea.  The Hebrew word for rod is “Mattah” meaning “support of life”.

As I read this story faith began to build up inside of me again.  I began to not lean on my own understanding or what I could see at this moment in my life.

In Psalm 23 the rod is mentioned again:

The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.  He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters.  He restores my soul; He leads me in paths of righteousness for His names sake.  Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for you are with me; your ROD and your STAFF, they comfort me.  You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; my cup runs over. Surley, goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

The Hebrew word for rod in this verse is “Shebet” meaning “used for writing, punishing, fighting, and ruling.” The Hebrew word for staff is “mish ‘eneth” meaning “support, sustenance, or walking stick”.

The moment Moses was standing at the Red Sea, he had confidence in God because he knew God did not bring them to this place only to die.  Instead, he was comforted by Gods rod and his staff.  He knew the power that God had and he listened carefully to Him.

.. As you stand at the Red Sea and all you can see is water for miles, and your enemies pursing from behind, wait upon the voice of the Lord to say “raise your rod and part the sea”.   God will fulfill His promises to you.  He is a good God, and he will continue to show his goodness to you.  His rod is sustenance, correction, comfort, his power in your life, and support. Sometimes we have to say “God, I believe but help my unbelief”.  Choose to believe, even when your eyes cant see because surley, goodness, and mercy follow you all the days of your life, and you WILL dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Amen!

God will fulfill his promises to you! Just stand firm and believe.

“Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today… “The Lord will fight for you and you shall hold your peace.”



A bare-faced white girl in Africa, laughing and playing with children, not a care in the world- A vision I had during the fire conference as the resounding message of authentic love for Jesus and for others flooded my ears. I realized the girl in the vision was me. God began to reveal to my heart what true authenticity looks like, and how different it is from the American Church. God is literally searching hearts for a genuine people who love Him, and love others.  Even before the conference God began to stir in my spirit the need for authentic people in the body of Christ.  It is so sad, but so true!  The American Church has become nothing more than a game of popularity and power.  We come dressed in our fancy clothes, driving our nice cars, sitting in “our” seats to hear the message and maybe gossip a little about how someone treated us wrong.  We have a view of ourselves as better than others because we are “saved”. Are we?  Meanwhile, leadership creates prideful egos that set the trend for the rest of the church.  This is the epitome of grieving the holy spirit.  When we as Christians allow our positions of leadership “go to our heads” we automatically create a barrier to Jesus and to others.  The ministry and the whole christian lifestyle has nothing to do with us, but everything to do with Jesus.  Whatever happened to serving others?  What ever happened to counting others as more important than ourselves?

Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Philippians 2:3

God is bringing a heart of humility to the church so that we can reach others.  He is stirring up a love for others like never before.  To love others we have to be “real” people.  We can no longer sit back and disengage as if our lives are perfect.  We have to engage and be imitators of Christ. (Ephesians 5:1).  In the garden before Jesus went to the cross Jesus prayed to God and asked “if there is any way the cup can pass from me so be it” but he knew that he had to endure the cross. Jesus was so authentic and so real. He had no problem confronting sin and telling people to sin not more, but in love.

God has such a love for people and this is why he sent his only son to die for us. (John 3:16) The first commandment is to love our Lord God with all of our hearts and the second is to love others as ourselves. I know I write about this all of the time, but we have to get back to the basics. This is the gospel, to love God and love others.

This is a call to be real.  I hope this provokes you to open up your heart and life to let others in.  To not seek after the things of this world, but to seek first the Kingdom. A call to put away your self-righteous and egotistical attitudes and tune into the authenticity.

When position and leadership make us feel better than others, we need to take up our crosses again.  We need to have hearts that have compassion for others again. Gods passion is PEOPLE.

Lastly, this is a call for evangelism.  Go into all the world and preach the Gospel. To do this we must be an genuine people. When we are “real” we can truly touch others and allow God to use us.


This is not in any way about anyone that I know or a church, but in every way a word from God to his church, including me.  It has been a clinging symbol in my spirit and until I wrote it out, it would continue to make noise.

Put on then, as Gods chosen ones holy ad beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive, and above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called on body, And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God and whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the father through him.  Colossons 3:12


Fullness of Joy!


Broken shattered glass surrounding a picture that my grandma colored and framed for me as a Christmas gift lay on the floor…

I began to feel the depths of fullness of joy after years of trying to find it from people, relationships, success and other things. I finally felt the joy of the Lord in my life. I would arise in the morning with a new found happiness.

It started at a young age; I had always dealt with the darkness of depression. I was once set free of the entanglements of the deep soul tie of the lies of unhappiness.  I remember having an experience where I was able to read the word and pray and the Lord completely wrecked my life. Wrecked it for the good. I found joy like I had never had before, but somehow at the beginning of the year I found myself in the pit again. I was so far from happy.  I was staring sadness in the face after failed relationships, disappointments, and the death of a very dear loved one.  I allowed my circumstances again to rule me. Although, I had a wonderful life and a bright future, Satan brought the familiarity of the dark again.

 Until recently I hadn’t experienced the true fullness of joy that the Lord has to offer. The Lord renewed my joy and it began to overflow out of me. It says that “out of your belly will flow springs of living water”. It was as if I began to experience life at its fullest. I literally felt the joy stirring from down deep within my soul. God has shown me what it feels like to wake up excited about life, excited about Him, and what He is doing.  It says in Philippians 4:4 to “rejoice in the Lord always and again to rejoice”.  Little did I know that every failed relationship, and even the death of my Grandma were things I had to walk through. Maybe God didn’t cause them, but through those situations I have been able to learn so much about life, and about myself.  One night, I was listening to the song “In The River” by Jesus Culture with some friends, I danced on the beach and in the ocean. The ocean; that is where God met me. He literally broke the chains of unhappiness and again gave me the fullness of joy. He has shown his goodness to me (even in the hard times of life) and for that I am forever grateful.  You can’t not be happy when you are dancing and singing. That is a fact! You really cannot be unhappy in the presence of God. It may sound stupid, but in that moment I experienced freedom and a joy that only God could bring.

During the times of sadness I had made index cards with bible verses on them to help me get the word of God down into my spirit.

…. I picked up the shattered picture from the floor (that my grandma colored for me before she passed) there was and index card turned over beside it. I picked up the index card and began to read the verse out loud, it read:

“The thief comes to steal, kill and to destroy but I have come that they might have life, and have it in abundance”.

I immediately realized that this was something the Lord was trying to show me. My flesh wanted to cry as I looked at the shattered glass on the floor, but instead I felt overwhelming joy, and peace knowing that Jesus came to bring me life and not just a boring mundane life, but a life of abundance and adventure. A life of JOY! Even when our lives look like that picture (shattered and broken) the Lord can give us fullness of joy. I am not living a different life, but my mind and spirit have been renewed. Sometimes, it’s a problem with our minds. Sometimes, we have to think differently, but sometimes it’s a spiritual problem and we have to allow God to bring his joy, love and peace. It’s so tangible, and God wants his children to experience it every day! I encourage you today, if you feel like your life is broken and shattered,  lean into God and allow him show you the benefits of your salvation. As an heir to the King of Kings we have benefits that God wants us to walk in, and JOY is one of them!





noun: a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen.

In our society flashing lights, beautiful people and nice things catch our eyes every day.  We see something we like and we might have a desire to pursue whatever it is we set our gaze upon.  As I was reading “The battle field of the mind” by Joyce Myer the Lord began to teach me about desire.  I pondered my heart and asked myself “what is it that I desire”?  What do I see myself asking God for? What do I want out of this life?

The Lord says that he will give his children the desires of their hearts. I want you to stop, take a moment, and ask yourself “what do I desire?” Ask yourself “what do I want?” Is it a big house, a car, a spouse, or a child? Is it a dream of living in a tropical place and never working again?  Those things are all okay, but desire is so much more than  just the things we want.  The word literally means a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen. If our wants become our desires we have completely missed the point.  God has created us to have a desire for him. He has created us for his purpose and for his glory.  I’m not saying that materialistic things are bad, I believe God wants to bless his beloved. The desire that is of up-most importance is our desire for Jesus.  Have we forgotten our desire? The desire to see the lost saved, the sick healed, to cry out for an outpouring from the Lord?

In the book “The Battlefield of the Mind” it reads

“set your mind on what is above, Colossians 3:1-2 If then you have been raised with Christ [to a new life, thus sharing His resurrection from the dead], aim at and seek the  [rich eternal treasure] that is above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. And set your minds and keep them on what is above (the higher things), not on the things that are on the earth.”

Desire comes from our hearts and in turn produces our thought life.    The things that we want can become our desires, and then can become our thoughts. Our desires can literally overwhelm our minds.  It is great to have nice things, to work hard, to live the American dream but my true desire is Jesus.  His children should have a desire for more of him.  We were not created to have a passive apathetic mind, nor were we created to have an apathetic relationship with Jesus. We are to be vigiliant and always seeking after him.  I believe Christians, especially Christians in America have created a “safety net” faith. By that I mean American’s want it all. They want to live their lives the way they want, do whatever they want and still claim the name of Jesus.

The parable of the wise and the foolish virgins is and example of this. The five wise virgins took their lamps with oil, the five foolish virgins took their lamps without oil. The five that took their lamps with oil i believe had a desire for more of God, they were ready and seeking him everyday, but the foolish virgins took their lamps without oil as a “safety net”. We have to be prepared and always searching and seeking after the Lord.

Luke 12:35 reads “Let your waist be girded and your lamps burning; and you yourselves be like men who wait for their master, when he will return from the wedding, that when he comes and knock they may open to him immediately .”

We are to be the “watchmen on the wall”. Our desire for Christ should follow us everywhere we go and with everything we do.

Now, I know that God wants us to enjoy life. He created us for his pleasure. Psalm 37 talks about desire.  If God puts something on your heart, you can pray for that thing.  He wants to give us our desires as long as they line up with his Word and his kingdom. He wants us to have joy and he cares about the little things in our lives.

Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:4

The Hebrew word for “desires” from the passage in Psalm 37 is “mishalah” meaning from a request-desire, petition. If we study this verse it says to “Delight yourself in the Lord” The Hebrew word for “Delight” is “anag” meaning root; to be soft or pliable. To delight ourselves in the Lord literally means to take root in God, to be soft or pliable meaning to allow him to lead us, saying “yes” when he asks us to do something or go somewhere, and saying “no” when he shuts a door.  When we take root in Jesus, He will give us the requests of our hearts. But then, in verse five it goes on to say “Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass”. We have to follow up our requests with faith.  What good is it to pray prayers if we don’t believe God will do what we ask? It is okay to have other desires but our one true desire should be to honor Jesus and to want more of Him.

I pray that everyone reading this will gain more of a desire  for Jesus, including myself. We can do that. We can pray to have more desire for Him. Our days are numbered and I want to be known as the one who stood faithful till the end. We are responsible for bringing the lamps and the oil ( the supplies, ourselves) but he is the one who will light the flame.

“For you will light my lamp; The Lord God will enlighten my darkness.” Psalm 18:28

Credit where it is due:
Natalie Justine photography
Strongs exhaustive concordance
(I’m not writing in mla or apa okay!)

This One’s For The Girls…


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A heart condition.

I found myself singing “Show Me Your Glory”, (a song off of a Jesus Culture C.D.) as I was worshiping/praying to God this morning. Then it hit me, “God’s glory cannot coincide with sin”. A repentant heart is so necessary. I had just asked a friend the day before how someone could grow up in a church and know God but not live a life for Him. Although, I do not have an answer I believe it comes down to a heart condition. I’m not saying people are going to live perfect lives before God, I’m saying we will “mess up”, but we have to have repentant hearts. God judges based on the heart and some “hearts” want to know God more, want to search the depths of God and are therefore repentant. On the other hand Some “hearts” are content in living where they are and do not care to seek God for more of Him.
Recently, I had been having reoccurring dreams of tsunami’s and I thought I had just eaten too much pizza. Come to find out, God was up to something. He was revealing yet another truth. In my dreams I would be on the beach (my favorite place to be), sometimes with people that I know and sometimes by myself. The next thing I would see is a huge tsunami swallowing up the land and I would run. Once, I even got caught up in the wave. The revelation came later: the water is a symbol of God’s spirit, and before you say “God’s spirit would never do that”, let me explain… God’s Spirit cannot relate to a sinful spirit. They are not on the same level. Those whose hearts are repentant and love God do not have to fear being “swallowed up by his spirit”. Have spiritual ears for a second- Just like in Noah’s time God sent a flood to destroy all evil (things not of God’s likeness), in that same way God will destroy things not of his likeness in us. That is His will for our lives. There is a call to be “Holy as He is Holy”,to have a repentant heart that longs for God’s Glory and hates that which is evil. This, my friends, means that we have to sacrifice; not only to sacrifice our time but a total surrender in every way.

I’m not saying God is going to literally bring a tsunami to destroy sin/evil. I believe this is a spiritual reminder. If we are to be led by the spirit we should be sensitive to what God is trying to say to us.  When in Gods will we do not have to fear because we can rest in the shadow of The Almighty. We can literally flow with the wave, get caught up in the tsunami and honestly, isn’t that where we should yearn to be?  This can be scary because this means that we are no longer in control. We lose complete control of our lives as they completely become the Lord’s when we let ourselves get caught up in His wave.
To know His glory is what he wants for us, but we have to destroy the things that are not of His likeness. We have to become relate-able to Him and have a repentant heart.
I can hear the call now “Oh, son or daughter (insert YOUR name), come be with me”. To be with Him means we will have to sacrifice the things of this world. “Beauty for Ashes”.
1 peter 4:1-2
Therefore, since Christ suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves also with the same mind, for he who has suffered in the flesh has ceased from sin, that he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh for the lusts of men, but for the will of God.
-will you answer the call?…
-be careful little eyes what you see
-be careful little ears what you hear
-be careful little hands what you touch
-be careful little feet where you go