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One, that sticks closer than a brother.

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One, that sticks closer than a brother.

A big punch in the gut and all of the wind knocked out of two healthy lungs gasping for air after an altercation with jealousy. A face pounded in by fist’s of hatred and selfishness. A baseball-batted swing to the lumbar by backbiting. A face mask tied around the neck for suffocation by gossip and revenge. There’s still a last gasp of air but then thrown into the sea of forgetfulness and loneliness.

It can feel that way. It can feel like a brutal murder to the insides. It, it is sin, disappointment and let down from others. The world is an ugly place but it can also be beautiful. People said they would be there for you and they weren’t. They did horrible things and abused you but didn’t understand that what they were doing was slowly killing you. It killed your joy. It killed who you were and what you cared about. Maybe, it was years ago. Maybe, it was a few seconds ago. But it made you feel worthless. I get it and so does HE.

“A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is ONE who sticks closer than a brother.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭18:24‬

Who is this “ONE”?

One is a must know, must see and hear from.

One is the best bud you always call when you need a talk. He’s the guy you can’t wait to spend time with. He’s better than anyone you’ve ever met. Somehow, every time you leave Him, you feel better than when you came. He gives an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. He gives such joy and good counsel.

One, will block the fist before it reaches the gut, and guards the face with the helmet of salvation before it injures the look. He sends the baseball bat back to the offender. One doesn’t allow the face mask be placed. One protects and prevents from drowning and brings love and warmth where loneliness tries to set foot.

Who is ONE?

This one is Jesus. He sticks closer than a brother.

“because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, “Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.””

‭‭Romans‬ ‭10:9-11

Judas will always lead you to the cross!

“But behold, the hand of my betrayer is with me on the table. And truly the Son of Man goes as it has been determined, but woe to that man by whom He is betrayed!” Luke 22:21

From the beginning of time the birth, death, resurrection and return of Jesus was prophesied. Many people played important roles in this process. Some were good and others appeared as the villain but ALL had a hand in the production of Gods will, which is plainly given to us in John 3:16. One may hypocritically look at the person of Judas and think “I could never do that”.

Rewind a few chapter’s in the gospels and it is seen that Judas was chosen as a disciple. He walked with Jesus and talked with Jesus. He was on the boat when Jesus calmed the storm. He was there in the midst of the tangible manifested miracles that Jesus performed. Jesus even gave him authority to heal the sick, raise the dead and cast out demons in His name! How is it then that Judas betrayed him?

Immediately, he went up to Jesus and said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” and kissed Him…. he was taken and then… they spat in His face and beat Him; others struck Him with the palms of their hands, saying, prophesy to us, Christ! Who is the one who struck You?”… the crowed cried out saying “crucify him!”… He was mocked, beaten and embarrassed then placed on the cross to die where the torture continued… and about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying , Eli, Eli, Lana sabachthani?” “That is My God, My God, why have you forsaken Me?”. Then we know, Jesus was placed in a tomb and on the third day He rose again!

The story of Judas’ betrayal of Jesus sheds light on how it led him to the cross. The cross in the Bible is the depiction of dying to self as it states in Luke 9:23. It’s states to bear your own cross and die to yourself daily. Even Jesus himself prayed in the garden before his crucifixion, “Father, if there is any way take this cup from me, so be it.” Although he prayed this prayer, He fully knew that this was His calling. This was what He was sent to this earth to do! His calling was to save the world but it didn’t come with ease.

Judas’ role in the free salvation and free healing of the world led Jesus to the cross! Even Judas was apart of the plan.

A lot like Jesus’ death on the cross there is a call for ours (Christ followers). A Christ follower may have a Judas. To understand well that Judas will lead them to the cross is comfort because three days later, there was victory! One may want to clear their name as Jesus wanted but “He kept silent”. He knew the Father places tables before Him in the presence of His enemies!

This depiction of Judas and the evil thereof that he possessed against Jesus can be woven into the lives of Christ followers as a call to trust that Judas will always lead them to the cross. The cross is the call to die to flesh and embrace the new person of Jesus, the risen son of God.

Your Judas is apart of the plan! Victory is yours.

I’m “Just a Nurse”!

Awaken at 5:30, jump in the shower and put on my ‘dryer tumbled scrubs’. I race out the door, place one shoe on after the other. My pant leg got caught in my sock, I find out when I walk into work and my coworkers tell me. In hopes of not forgetting my water bottle to stay hydrated for the day, I look around in my car, back inside I go to get my hydration! My day is started, prayers in the car with worship music to begin. The armor of God is placed and prayers to be successful, for favor and to do my best, to be the love of Jesus and to not lose my temper! Drive-thru coffee is a must and then I clock in by 6:45. I await the charge nurse to notify me of my assignment. My assignment is received and I report to my nursing station, receive report from the night R.N. and it begins. My white boards are supposed to be updated and my rooms stocked but there is no time as I receive a full load of patient’s. Patient one has chest pain, two, a seizure who is post-ictal, three, is a pain medication seeker yelling for the nurse and four, a broken ankle. I introduce myself to my patient’s. As I walk into each room each patient needs something. My chest pain is now a STEMI, hurry quick! notify the doctor and charge nurse to get transportation, give aspirin, set up the heparin drip and call report within 30 minutes! Remember, time is muscle! Meanwhile, my other patient’s wait. The pain seeker is continuously yelling “nurse I need dilauded” and proceeded to fake fall on the floor to get attention. My seizure patient is not alert or oriented but breathing, hooked up to the monitor and seizure precautions applied. My broken ankle patient is waiting for a splint. I ask the doctor for pain medication for patient three and four, notify the doctor of patient two’s status and proceed to give report to flight R.N. Then, ship my STEMI out by helicopter. Rescue calls: a cardiac arrest is coming in. I gather my team and prepare the room for the cardiac patient. Report: patient found down in asystole, last seen normal yesterday morning, patient is intubated and given three rounds of epinephrine, CPR initiated on arrival, IV access is an IO in the left leg. Patient arrives in VTcah, we switch the patient to the stretcher and begin defibrillation, CPR, IV 18 gauge in the left Antecubital and another round of ‘epi’,then amiodarone. Three minutes in and check for a pulse, we have a pulse and the monitor shows normal sinus rhythm. The patient is monitored and propofol drip initiated for sedation. Family is notified and able to see the patient. I forgot to chart on all of my patient’s because I was busy. I ask if someone can watch my patient’s as I catch up. One look at the monitor and the patient is back in Vtach, family is in the room and I yell for the doctor to see the patient! Defibrillate and the algorithm begins again. The patient doesn’t make it. Asystole on the monitor…We notify the family. Wailing and mourning is heard from down the hall. I say a quick prayer and give the family time to mourn. Meanwhile, I have to check on my other patient’s. I rotate patient’s in and out of my rooms all day. Juggling, running, yelling, so much chaos! It’s 5 p.m. and I haven’t eaten lunch or gone to the bathroom. My back aches and I haven’t completed my charting. One of my patients is mad because I forgot their warm blanket. My boss called me into the office for not updating my white boards and my pain medication seeking patient complained that I didn’t bring their medication’s fast enough. Psychologically, I mourned the death of a human being. It’s now 7 and I give report to the night shift nurse. It was a rough day.

A hypothetical day in the life of and E.R. nurse. Psychologically, I’m spent. I tried my hardest but it wasn’t good enough.

But remember I’m just a nurse…

Are YOU as Beautiful on the Inside as YOU are on the Outside?

Many times people say “you are beautiful on the inside and the outside”. I kind of let that sink in and I asked myself, “Am I as beautiful on the inside as I am the outside?”

A lot of women have issues believing they are beautiful, but I’m not so much talking about physical beauty, but the beauty of the inner being. It’s also difficult to believe what the word of God says about yourself when people mistreat you and say negative things over or about you (which can happen if you walk into Walmart). Knowing who you are in Christ is so important especially when people say negative or abusive words out of anger or just plain senselessness.

God says, “Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” 1 Peter 3:3-4.

The gist of that passage is that God is concerned with our heart condition! He is not so much concerned with our physical appearance.

God’s desire is for our inner man be pure and beautiful. What does that look like?

“When they arrived, Samuel took one look at Eliab and thought, “Surely this is the Lord’s anointed!” But the Lord said to Samuel, “Don’t judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The Lord doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” Then Jesse told his son Abinadab to step forward and walk in front of Samuel. But Samuel said, “This is not the one the Lord has chosen.” Next Jesse summoned Shimea, but Samuel said, “Neither is this the one the Lord has chosen.” In the same way all seven of Jesse’s sons were presented to Samuel. But Samuel said to Jesse, “The Lord has not chosen any of these.” Then Samuel asked, “Are these all the sons you have?” “There is still the youngest,” Jesse replied. “But he’s out in the fields watching the sheep and goats.” “Send for him at once,” Samuel said. “We will not sit down to eat until he arrives.” So Jesse sent for him. He was dark and handsome, with beautiful eyes. And the Lord said, “This is the one; anoint him.” So as David stood there among his brothers, Samuel took the flask of olive oil he had brought and anointed David with the oil. And the Spirit of the Lord came powerfully upon David from that day on. Then Samuel returned to Ramah.”

‭‭1 Samuel‬ ‭16:6-13‬ ‭

Samuel was sent to find a king because of Saul’s disobedience and God’s chosen was not at all what others thought he should look like. But his HEART was right before God. He doesn’t look at people as we look at them physically but he looks internally at the heart. David was a little shepherd boy but God knew what he was doing. God is more concerned with the conditions of our heart’s than what we look like. He commands us to love the lord our God with our whole heart, but the second command is alike, to love our neighbor as ourself.

I was pondering the scripture “search my heart for any wicked way” as it say’s in Psalm. God showed me things that needed to change. As Christian’s, we should always be checking ourselves first. To have a gentle spirit and one that loves all even when manipulated or provoked, to think the best of people, and to forgive quickly are all attributes that God loves. Everyone want’s the mic until they have to talk about their own faults!

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” To be more Christ like is to be beautiful on the inside.

Self control is the last thing your flesh wants when someone does you wrong! You want to let that person “have it”! I can remember one patient that I had at the hospital and this person drove me to the end of my patience. I wanted to let out my “crazy” on them, but God whispered in my ear “they need the love of Jesus”. At that point, I realized God had asked me to show them His LOVE! God asks of us to control ourselves and let him handle the rest. Are you a leader and aggressive with your words? Are you an employer and slandering your boss? Have you been lied to and mistreated and want revenge? These are all things God say’s “give to me”. Instead He asks of us to love in return!

Corinthian’s tells us what love is not “It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” It is not self seeking! Real love is authentic and wants the best for other’s even when evil has been paid. It is not fake but it is the truest form of love!

To read the passage out of Corinthian’s is so easy but to act on it when you are slandered is difficult. In addition, true authentic love is what God is looking for. If our heart’s and our actions do not align, it’s not the authentic love of the Father. I leave you with this question. I don’t care who you are. We all need to ask ourselves this. No one is too big, too good or too “Holy” for it.

Are you as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside?

Think about it.

Lord I pray that you bring my heart and the readers’ heart to conviction. That we would truly love like you love. Your love is greater than life! I pray we experience that love and show that love to others.

Something new

Do you ever have this urge that something is welling up on the inside of you and you don’t know how or when but God is going to release it in due time?

That’s the calling of the Holy Spirit to draw you closer to the Lord because He’s about to use you. What has been poured into you will be released.

I am asking that you have supernatural vision when reading this post because it doesn’t make sense in the natural.

“1 Corinthians 2:7-13 No, the wisdom we speak of is the mystery of God his plan that was previously hidden, even though he made it for our ultimate glory before the world began. But the rulers of this world have not understood it; if they had, they would not have crucified our glorious Lord. That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” But it was to us that God revealed these things by his Spirit. For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets. No one can know a person’s thoughts except that person’s own spirit, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit. And we have received God’s Spirit (not the world’s spirit), so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us. When we tell you these things, we do not use words that come from human wisdom. Instead, we speak words given to us by the Spirit, using the Spirit’s words to explain spiritual truths.

God has specific plans for each of us and there are assignments that he has and asks of us. As it states in 1 Corinthians 7:17 Only, as the Lord has assigned to each one, as God has called each, in this manner let him walk And so I direct in all the churches.

Recently, God has been giving me a more prophetic vision and as you have read in my last post, He has taken me through a Refiner’s Fire season. In this season, He has spoken to me, warned me and corrected me. I have not been without blemish but God is doing something big!

It began when I saw a snake on a bush and not until the close of this last season did I realize this was a prophetic sign of the season I was about to encounter. When I saw the snake, I was the most fearful I have ever been. I dealt with fear, panic, worry and some health issues that are now whole. In that season, God spoke to me like never before. I had dreams, visions and it produced more of a desire for His will in my life. At the close of that season, there was a white bird and it landed on a bush(in the spirit my mind went back to when I saw the snake) I realized that I need to see in the spirit what God is trying to say. I got into my car and that white bird flew next to my car for about half of a mile. I knew God was saying something. Now, you may not understand the symbolism but when God speaks to me he gives me signs and discernment but he has even spoken to me through other people. This sign in my spirit gave me freedom in knowing that that chapter of pain and deceit is closed and a new chapter is beginning. I am not talking about people or relationships, I am talking about the spiritual season that many people have encountered. This new chapter will be freedom, peace and new beginnings.

I know it says in the word that what is done in the natural is usually what is being done in the spirit. The supernatural signs in the natural have given a word for what is happening in the spiritual realm:

Many Christians have been going through this refiners Fire season. There have been disappointments, set backs, diagnosis and many other things but the Lord is saying that there is about to be a new season. New things are coming that no man, no devil in hell can hold back. God is bringing the ones who are “standing in the gap” (as it says in Ezekiel) closer to Him and are going to experience things supernaturally that they never once thought that they would see. This is a word of encouragement to not look back but to keep moving forward in confidence that God is faithful. This is a prophetic call to cling to Him and to see His goodness.

Not saying there won’t be hard times but a new season is in store.


Let what is welling up in your spirit produce fruit. You were made for “such a time as this”.


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“For He is like a refiners fire and like launderers’ soap, He will sit as a refiner and a purifier of silver; He will purify the sons of Levi and purge them as gold and silver, That they may offer to the Lord an offering in righteousness.”  Malachi 3:3-4

When one thinks about the Refiner’s fire, it isn’t that the gold or silver completely burns  but that it burns away the impurities to make it a purer gold. This is the way that God deals with sin and human nature in ones own life.  Christians are not always prepared for this process as it can lead to a plethora of internal upheaval and it is not at all comfortable.

As disciples of Christ one must go through this process of refining to produce the fruits of the spirit. One is not automatically saved then  immediately begins the production of  all the Fruits of the Spirit in ones life. Sometimes, one must walk with the Lord and experience difficulty for the Lord to achieve the product. A product more like Christ. This at times can be very difficult but it is more useful to the kingdom.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control…” Galatians 5:22

This season may be intense or merely like a slight burn. God will walk with one through the darkest season of life–If that is what it takes. Many internal struggles and misunderstandings of “why”can at times it can feel like Job and his own suffering and questioning. Sometimes there isn’t merely a physical death but a mental and spiritual death. There can be so many things going on inside that it is difficult to comprehend. One can say it’s just “emotional” (as many have labeled it) but it’s a deep knowing of the personal walk with God, so intimate that only the Lord and individual will understand. This is a season one may have to pull away from everything that was thought to be of God to realize that it isn’t, in order to be pliable to Gods will. One may call to God and say: “Where are you?” “Why are you allowing brokenness?” God answered:

“He said I am breaking you down only to rebuild you as Solomon built the temple. “All things work together for the good to those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

One was once told “I am going through a difficult season as well, but I can’t show it because I am in the ministry”.  This thought process is not an accurate depiction of a real authentic leader. Being in the ministry is not a fake personality. The representation of our walk with Christ should be authentic. If in the ministry or not, one must  lift another up in prayer and be present for one another. The first step is realizing one is broken and asking God “Why?”.

Until one completely seeks the Lord’s face, the understanding of the season won’t be revealed. David cried out for God to help him daily. It can be imagined of David with his harp in the field crying out to the Lord:

Lord, listen to me and answer me.
I am poor and helpless.
Protect me, because I worship you.
My God, save me, your servant who trusts in you.
Lord, have mercy on me,
because I have called to you all day.
Give happiness to me, your servant,
because I give my life to you, Lord.
Lord, you are kind and forgiving
and have great love for those who call to you.
Lord, hear my prayer,
and listen when I ask for mercy.
I call to you in times of trouble,
because you will answer me.

Lord, there is no god like you
and no works like yours.
Lord, all the nations you have made
will come and worship you.
They will honor you.
10 You are great and you do miracles.
Only you are God.
11 Lord, teach me what you want me to do,
and I will live by your truth.
Teach me to respect you completely.
12 Lord, my God, I will praise you with all my heart,
and I will honor your name forever…” Psalm 86

He begged and pleaded with God throughout the bible. He too went through many Refiner’s fire moments. God allows these times to bring out more of a desperation for Him.

I pray today that God continue to keep one in the fire until it’s time to come out at the exact and perfect time. One must want to be more like Jesus, to live a life completely sold out to Him. To live a life of victory. He has won death, hell and the grave through the resurrection. He too can bring victory to lives. This is only a season but it’s necessary for growth in Christ.

“7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” 1 Peter 1:7

And I began to cry out Holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come. Come be the fire inside of me, take away any impurities. Search my heart for any wicked way. Make me more like you, Jesus.

This Day I fight…

We are all on this journey called “life”. Sometimes I say “hashtag life” when explaining my “rough day”. I say it sarcastically, but it’s a true reflection of how life goes sometimes. “Hashtag life” means there are ups and downs but I’m okay no matter where I am at in life. 

Sometimes we lose peace, hope and joy through struggles or trials. There are seasons we have to fight for joy and hope. We even have to fight the thoughts that cloud our minds. When this happens we can’t be passive christians curled up in a ball in the corner, we have to learn to go to war! 

My story: 

I’m very vulnerable in my writings. I write a lot about things I go through, but that is how we overcome. It says in the word that “we overcome the the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony”. So, I will write about my testimony in hopes of others being set free from bondage that I was. 

Growing up I struggled with discouragement. For some reason, I would always find myself in a dark place emotionally. My thoughts became like a spider web, they entangled my mind. Satan would use every lie he could to get me down, and I would believe them. I would even begin to speak them out loud. One season of my life, I became hopeless. The guy I was dating didn’t work out, I didn’t get into the college that I wanted to, and I had to take a break from school and work at a job that I didn’t particularly like. In that season friends abandoned me and I felt completely alone. Little did I know, this season would produce a warrior. Somehow I got my hands on a C.D. on how to war in the spirit. It taught me how to recognize lies the enemy was placing in my mind, and to put on the armor of God. I began to use the word of God and prayer as weapons against sorrow. 

“If we believe the word of God is true then we believe that the Word of God is a sword. It actually says that it is more powerful than any two-edged sword.(Hebrews 4:12).

I began to fight, to war in prayer and the confession of the Word of God over my mind and my life. The Lord completely broke sadness, depression and anxiety from my life. I had total peace and joy in my situation. About a month later I found out that I got into nursing school and a new season of life began. 

I share this because recently Satan has tried to bring me back to the pit I was delivered from. “Hashtag life”. I went on a missions trip to Ireland and something that was said before I left Ireland was “expect the enemy to try to come against you because of all that you have done in the spirit here”. I was prepared to arrive back to America in a battle. “Hashtag life” happened and I had to war again. Life is not going to always be perfect but I know the One who is perfect! If I have delt with this as a Christian (for over twenty years) I know that many others have and do too. 

When these things come against us we can’t sit back and be “passive Christians”, we have to fight! For we do not war against flesh and blood but against principalitites of darkness. Even when we think people are our problems, clearly they are not. It is a spiritual fight. To be a victor we must open up our mouths and proclaim what is true. 

“The problem is that too many christians have confused peace with passivity. They have hollow peace instead of hallowed peace. Their lives are prayerless and they live in perpetual compromise with heavens enemies. This is not peace; it is bondage. Jesus was the quintessential peacemaker, yet he boldly confronted the advance of evil. And he did so with unbending righteous and unsheathed spiritual authority”… Jesus operated in war mode. 

If you find yourself broken and without hope or joy you should get mad because this is exactly where Satan wants you. He wants you to be in bondage so that you don’t fulfill the Lords will and so that you won’t be able to reach others for his glory. 

This day we fight! 

Jeremiah 29:11

Psalm 33:20-22

Hebrews 6:19

Psalm 138:6-7

Psalm 139:7-24

Take a deep breath and begin again…

Take a deep breath and begin again…

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Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale… the sound of my own breath in the quietness. Thoughts racing through my head, but in the silence, all I could hear was the action of my autonomic nervous system. Something that could only be started and stopped by the creator.

 Somehow, I lost myself in the whirlwinds and business of life. I wanted what I wanted and didn’t think twice about it. I have literally been given almost everything I could ever ask for. When I say almost, I mean it. There was something I didn’t have that I nearly wrestled with God about. I realized it was time to be vulnerable again. To be honest with myself and my audience. The deep thought of “if I just move away and start again, I can change things, it will be better”. That may be very true, but it’s also the flight in me. Fleeing will be fun for a while, until I deal with this thought and feeling head on. It’s just going to come full circle and I must deal with it wherever I am.

I awoke out of the slumber and selfishness of my desires to see the light that has been given to me. My identity is not found in this world, in what I want, even in what I am made up of, but whose I am. I almost forgot that my life could change at any given second, because I serve a God who holds my life in his hands. I forgot for a second whose I was. Thank God that verses like: 1 Thessalonians 1:4 were planted deep in me, that I could look back and know that He chose me. Wow! I was chosen by God! So many time’s we want to be accepted by people, but what we need to realize is that we were sought after, and chosen by God. It seems silly, like some far-off fairytale that is hard to comprehend, until you feel the true love of the father. A love that changes your actions, that provokes you to love and do things even when they don’t make sense. The kind of love everyone is secretly searching for. People look for that kind love and acceptance through alcohol, drugs, sex, music, the way they act, social media, “friends”. They won’t admit it, but it’s true! The only type of love that can bring you back when you are so far off course, that will love you when you do it wrong, that always believes the best, that corrects, that trusts, that dies for YOU. Serious love, that I am forever grateful for. Everyone’s search for love is different and important. A girl desires for a man to seek her out, to only have eyes for her. This kind of love is found in the love of the father. He seeks us out through his holy spirit. Therefore, he created the church as his bride and He the groom.

Even though I lost who I was for a second, God brought me back to my roots, to show me that He’s not done with me yet. That feeling of flight might have just been a step in the direction of love. It’s almost like a feeling of a mime inside of a box. The mime goes from side, to side, to side, to side searching, seeking for a way out, and then it realizes that it can just step away. Step away… STEP AWAY from the thoughts that entangle, lay them down at the feet of Jesus, and realize you were chosen. Chosen for a time such as this, chosen for a specific purpose, chosen to show love and be loved. God chose you because he LOVES you. I was reminded of the Love Jesus has for me.

Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale…… its literally the breath that God breathed inside of us. Life has its funny ways of making us crazy, making us think, second guess, but I know whose I am. I am a daughter of the king, and I will not be swayed by my thoughts, or desires, but by what I know based on God’s word.



Jeremiah 1:5

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart…..



Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me…

red-seaThen they said to Moses, “Because there were no graves in Egypt, have you taken us away to die in the wilderness? why have you so dealt with us, to bring us up out of Egypt? “Is this not the word that we told you in Egypt, saying , let us alone that we may serve the Egyptians’? For it would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than that we should die in the wilderness.”

At this moment in Exodus Moses had brought the Israelites out of Egypt, and they approached the Red Sea.  They began  to moan, groan and complain in fear for their lives.  All they could see for miles and miles was water, and their enemies were coming to kill them.  Can you imagine being Moses, standing in front of the Red Sea as the Egyptians were pursuing from behind?  Moses continued to heed to the Lords calling, the Lords Commands, and he came to what he and the people of Israel thought was the end.  Non-the-less, Moses continued to have faith as the Israelites fought their own emotions and thoughts from within themselves.

“And Moses said to the people “do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today”… “The Lord will fight for you and you shall hold your peace. “… And the Lord said to Moses, “why do yo cry to me? Tell the children of Israel to go forward.  “but lift up your rod, and stretch out your hand over the sea and divide it. And the children of Israel shall go on dry ground through the midst of the sea”…

“Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and the Lord caused the sea to go back by a strong east wind all that night, and made the sea into dry land, and the waters were divided.”

God brought the Egyptians to a place where they could not rely on themselves or even on their leader, Moses.  They didn’t know what was going to happen next. All they could see was destruction for their future.  They didn’t continue to believe that God would fulfill His promises to them. In panic, they cried out for help because they couldn’t see the plan of the Lord.

I dove into Exodus this morning only to come out with a new revelation of Gods promise.  Sometimes we come to the end of our road, and God has to take over.  A lot of times I think God does this so that we no longer rely on ourselves, but we have to rely solely on Him.  When we come to the end (The Red Sea) we have to continue to believe that God will fulfill His promises to us. We serve a good God.  If God has always been good to us and we can see that, why would he stop now?

When I look back on all my past worries I can see the goodness of the Lord in my life. I see now that there was no reason to worry because God directed me and kept me. I know he was my rod at times that I couldn’t bare life on my own.

There is an interesting correlation between Gods power, and the rod in the story of Moses parting the Red Sea.  The Hebrew word for rod is “Mattah” meaning “support of life”.

As I read this story faith began to build up inside of me again.  I began to not lean on my own understanding or what I could see at this moment in my life.

In Psalm 23 the rod is mentioned again:

The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.  He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters.  He restores my soul; He leads me in paths of righteousness for His names sake.  Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for you are with me; your ROD and your STAFF, they comfort me.  You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; my cup runs over. Surley, goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

The Hebrew word for rod in this verse is “Shebet” meaning “used for writing, punishing, fighting, and ruling.” The Hebrew word for staff is “mish ‘eneth” meaning “support, sustenance, or walking stick”.

The moment Moses was standing at the Red Sea, he had confidence in God because he knew God did not bring them to this place only to die.  Instead, he was comforted by Gods rod and his staff.  He knew the power that God had and he listened carefully to Him.

.. As you stand at the Red Sea and all you can see is water for miles, and your enemies pursing from behind, wait upon the voice of the Lord to say “raise your rod and part the sea”.   God will fulfill His promises to you.  He is a good God, and he will continue to show his goodness to you.  His rod is sustenance, correction, comfort, his power in your life, and support. Sometimes we have to say “God, I believe but help my unbelief”.  Choose to believe, even when your eyes cant see because surley, goodness, and mercy follow you all the days of your life, and you WILL dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Amen!

God will fulfill his promises to you! Just stand firm and believe.

“Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today… “The Lord will fight for you and you shall hold your peace.”